I don’t know what I’m doing here, guys. Don’t have a goddamn idea. I started out on friggin’ reddit with a post about Nisemonogatari, and now I’m ANN’s official Monogatari analyst. That’s worth noting, right? I’m happy about how things have turned out, but am generally too stressed and busy to actually revel in it, which I guess is how this writing thing goes no matter how you’re doing? I hope?
But yeah, being picked up as first a streaming reviewer and then a staff critic was a pretty big thing for me this year, and has certainly changed my relationship with anime in some subtle and not-so-subtle ways. It’s interested reading reviews now – my first response to seeing someone else’s criticism is to immediately break down the structure, see how much focus they dedicate to each element of the production, think about their use of tone, etc. The review mill is a hungry beast, and so I’ve had to get even more mercenary in my watching choices, but that lack of flexibility is countered by the satisfaction of the work I do. The preview post is a hellish thing, but it’s also kind of freeing, in that it’s nice to just watch a bunch of terrible shows and actually feel accomplished for it. I actually had less time to just goof around with bad shows prior to ANN – now I have an excuse to watch a bunch of random crap because I’m on the clock. I’m also trying to learn how to marathon, which is difficult for me, but it’s a process.
We’ll see where it goes from here. I’ve spent the last month slamming my head against the wall as I move the site to my own hosting, and I’m hoping the advertising that allows will let me inch just a little bit closer to full time between ANN and the stuff I write here. It’s been a hectic year, but I don’t regret any of it. I hope you’ll all stay with me as I keep stumbling on!