Bloom Into You’s sixth volume begins with the curtain about to rise on our play-within-a-comic. After an entire series spent playing the part of her sister, Touko will in this performance be playing the part of someone who rejects that philosophy outright, and chooses to embrace their own fledgling, uncertain identity. It’s simultaneously a gradual step and a terrifying one. On the one hand, she’s only playing the part of the person Yuu wishes she could be, in the context of an established, inauthentic performance. But on the other hand, she will be performing this new self in front of a vast audience, essentially the entire student body that she has sought to “fool” all this time.
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Bloom Into You – Volume 5
The first word I’d use to describe Bloom Into You’s manga, particularly in contrast with its animated adaptation, is sparse. Panel compositions are often defined by their vast, empty spaces, leaving plenty of room for the characters’ lingering, unspoken thoughts. This is a fine choice for a story like Bloom Into You, a story so preoccupied with the sense of deficiency or emptiness that haunts its two leads. Emptiness is what Touko sees when she considers what the future might bring – a wholly empty sky, the nothingness where her voice trails off, and the blueprint of behavior left by her sister ends.
Bloom Into You – Episode 13
Folks, the moment has arrived. At last, we’re gearing up to explore the final episode of Bloom Into You, and see how this charmingly on-the-nose theater production plays out. Last episode saw Yuu experiencing a crucial and long-awaited turn, as she at last went against Touko’s overt wishes in order to try and make her friend embrace her own identity.
Through doing this, Yuu also neatly managed to embrace her own identity. Yuu started this series unsure of either who she currently was or who she wanted to become, with the twin pressures of her lack of romantic inclinations and lack of professional aspirations embodying each of those feelings. Touko, someone who has made a willful point of not embracing any personal selfhood at all, likely saw a lot of herself in Yuu, thus prompting her initial combined declaration of “I love you” and “please, never change your feelings for me.” But while Touko has spent this season doggedly defending her non-identity, Yuu’s insecurities were never based in any permanent or chosen truth about herself – they were just things a lot of people feel as a high schooler, and things she’s subsequently started to grow past.
While Touko was once able to use her confidence and ultimatums to make Yuu obey her (something Yuu accepted more or less willingly, given her own desire for direction), Yuu has at this point gained such confidence and determination that she’s willing to potentially sacrifice her relationship with Touko in order to help Touko grow. Though Yuu herself describes this instinct as “selfishness,” we in the audience can clearly see it as a combination of selflessness, strong determination, and love. If you really, truly believe you are working in someone’s best interests, trying to help them against their wishes is never “selfish.” If your desire to help someone is greater than your desire to stay by their side, congratulations, you’ve found love. Whether Yuu realizes that or not, I’m thrilled to see her embracing her own desires, and can’t wait to see how this performance plays out. Let’s explore the finale of Bloom Into You!
Bloom Into You – Episode 12
Oh my god you guys it’s finally time. We’re diving back into Bloom Into You, and I couldn’t be happier. Last episode saw this phenomenal drama experiencing one of its most fundamental shakeups yet, as Touko learned that the facade she had been putting on in order to better emulate her sister was… actually a facade in her sister’s case as well. Though Mio put on a convincingly professional face as the head of the student council, in truth, she constantly leaned on her councilmates, and wasn’t really a diligent leader in the slightest.
Learning her personal ideal was a lie has left Touko understandably shaken, though it remains to be seen how she’ll actually adjust her behavior in consequence. It’s been clear all along that Touko’s desire to emulate her sister wasn’t really something her sister or family actually wished for – having seen her sister’s success, Touko has simply internalized a belief that achieving anything less would be a profound personal failure, and likely even a betrayal of her sister’s memory. Beliefs like that, the foundational myths of our self-images, don’t just dissipate when they’re proven not to match the historical record. Touko might reinvent herself or simply stay the course, but I can’t imagine her embracing full sincerity now – to be honest, it feels more likely that the coming rush of self-doubt and insecurity will only make her double down on her initial beliefs. But the fun of this show, and of character dramas altogether, is that great characters will always surprise you, and through surprising you teach you something new and true about the human experience. Let’s see how Touko handles this shift in another episode of Bloom Into You!
Bloom Into You – Episode 11
Alright folks, you know it’s time for Bloom Into You. As the season moves towards its endgame, we find ourselves approaching an inevitable clash between the rapidly diverging desires of Yuu and Touko. For Yuu, the last several episodes have seen her undergo a profound shift in how she views both Touko and herself. She can no longer affect the nonchalant, flirtatious person who once effortlessly sparred with Touko – having actually developed strong feelings for her senpai, she is now hyper-aware of Touko’s every movement, and increasingly unsatisfied with their romantic stasis. Meanwhile, challenges to Touko’s desire to replace her sister seem to have only hardened her own resolve. While misinterpreting Yuu’s newfound self-consciousness as a pushback against her own affection, she moves ever closer to fulfilling her sister’s role in the play, and thus completing her last wish. But what comes after she’s already done all the things her sister pursued? And will Yuu’s feelings even remain repressed that long? We’ve got plenty of thorny drama to look forward to as we explore another episode of this terrific show!
Bloom Into You – Episode 10
You know what folks, we’re watching more Bloom Into You. I have been absolutely loving this show’s thoughtful, incredibly sympathetic drama, and its characters have only gotten more rich and human as the show progresses. That goes doubly so for Touko, who just received an unexpected dash of sympathy from outside the show proper. Though I mentioned in the last two writeups that bad subtitles sabotaged Touko’s characterization, I originally watched through those episodes before I knew that – this writeup right here is the first time I’ve been actively aware that Touko’s confession was more “I’m afraid that if I accept my true self, no one will care for me,” and less “if you ever change, I’ll abandon you.” That puts Touko perfectly in line with both of our other leads, afraid that any expression of their true selves will get them cast aside. Though she still has more power in this relationship than Yuu, she’s nearly as vulnerable, and as Yuu begins to embrace her own feelings, I’m guessing that balance will continue to shift.
Speaking of which, holy crap, Yuu’s in love! Or lust, or infatuation, or something – regardless of their specific substance, Yuu is now clearly feeling physical, romantic feelings towards Touko. Though it would have been very interesting to have a genuinely asexual character as a romantic drama lead, it turns out Yuu’s issue was something also quite common to teenagers – it just took her a little longer to feel these feelings than others, and she assumed that meant there was something wrong with her. With Yuu now both intellectually and emotionally invested in moving beyond her current position, I’m guessing her current relationship will definitely run into some friction. Let’s see where this wonderful drama takes us next!
Bloom Into You – Episode 9
Alright everyone, it’s time to dive right back in to Bloom Into You. With the series over halfway over at this point, we’ve gained a solid understanding of Yuu, Touko, and even Sayaka’s feelings, as each of them grapple with shifting desires and an inability to fully embrace their own identities. “I have to perform an artificial self in order to maintain my status in high school” is a very common sentiment, but it’s taken a different form for each of these girls. For Touko, denying her identity is something she does willingly, or even gladly – she’s happier acting as her sister’s replacement than being herself, and afraid of being rejected for performing anything less than perfection. For Yuu, what was initially a comforting relationship with Touko has begun to feel significantly less so, as her own desires grow beyond what Touko is willing to accept from her. And for Sayaka, the overarching social prejudice against same-sex relationships weighs down heavily, making her question if there’s something fundamentally wrong with her.
Though I initially felt more sympathetic to Yuu and Sayaka’s narratives than Touko’s, I’ve since learned that Sentai royally screwed up the translation of episode six’s big confession scene – Touko wasn’t threatening Yuu, she was expressing her own fear of being rejected if she embraced herself. Knowing that, I feel much better about the manipulation and backbiting and general angst all three of these girls are throwing at each other, as they all work to present a self they think the others could love. Teens just do shitty stuff to each other, it’s a fact – they’re not monsters for that, and growing out of the insecurity that causes you to be cruel is a big part of adolescence. Let’s see what our mixed-up kids do next in another episode of Bloom Into You!
Bloom Into You – Episode 8
GUYS, WE GOTTA WATCH MORE BLOOM INTO YOU. I’ve been enjoying this show ever since the first episode, and it’s had consistent peaks all along, but HOLY CRAP episode seven. That episode by itself jumped this show from “extremely good character drama” to “turn on the next episode you fuckin’ nitwit,” neatly illustrating both the consequences of oppressive social assumptions, and the counterbalancing necessity of mentors or representational figures that validate your identity. In one neatly composed episode, Bloom Into You demonstrated one of art’s highest callings – weaving an intellectual argument into an emotional narrative, and through doing so making the consequences of some political reality tangible in an immediate, felt sense.
It is one thing to be told “gay people are harmed by a culture that solely embraces limiting, voyeuristic media portrayals of people like them,” and another to see Sayaka living with the consequences of that culture, doubting her own feelings and desperately wishing she were someone different. Most people just aren’t that great at imagining the lived experience of people unlike themselves – through media like this, that lived experience can be made clear, with sympathy hopefully ensuing. Without ever feeling didactic or insincere, Bloom Into You thoughtfully illustrated the close relationship between our media environment, our support structures, and our own sense of self, building Sayaka up as a genuine emotional force in the plot all the while. I can’t wait to see what this terrific show does next!
Bloom Into You – Episode 7
Gosh, episode six sure was a mess, wasn’t it? It was one of this production’s crowning achievements so far, but all of its aesthetic beauty and psychological inquiry were in service of buoying up one of the most proudly unhealthy relationships I’ve seen. Framed as a joyous meeting of the minds in the most romantic possible setting, last episode’s climax was perhaps the single strongest scene of Bloom Into You, and also the most harrowing.
What was initially planned to be the moment where Yuu and Touko finally engage honestly, and Yuu actually helps Touko with her emotional hangups, turned instead into an emphatic affirmation of all the lies this relationship is built on. Touko promises to love Yuu, while thinking to herself that if Yuu were to change, she’d discard her in a moment. Yuu promises to respect Touko’s facade, while secretly praying both she and Touko grow out of their current situation. The two seem genuinely codependent at this point, and yet each of them also cannot respect the other’s most deeply held wishes, or respect all aspects of their personality at once. More than anything, they are unified by their dislike for fundamental elements of their own selves, and the fear that if they don’t have each other, they don’t have anyone. But with Touko loving Yuu for the lack of romantic feeling she hopes to outgrow, and Yuu loving Touko for the vulnerability she refuses to embrace, each of them end up reinforcing the very qualities they’re hoping to escape.
Currently, Yuu would be best off if she broke off this relationship entirely – it’s very unequal, she actively wants to change, and Touko is preventing her from embracing that change. Of course, if it were that easy to escape an unhealthy relationship, this drama wouldn’t be so deliciously messy. Having clearly stated just how bad for each other they are, I’m eager to see what tumbles down next. Let’s explore another episode of Bloom Into You!
Bloom Into You – Episode 6
Hello folks, and thank you for joining me as we explore another episode of the excellent Bloom Into You! This show has carried itself with confidence all throughout its first half, and as we near its halfway point, I find myself ever more invested in the strange, perpetually unequal relationship between Yuu and Touko. Our two leads definitely don’t have a healthy relationship at the moment, but their bond convincingly reflects each of their identities, and what each of them are looking for.
If Yuu was a confident and well-adjusted person, she’d almost certainly never have agreed to this quasi-relationship with Touko… of course, we know well that Yuu is anything but a confident and well-adjusted person. Yuu is defined by her insecurities and worried that there’s something fundamentally wrong with her, and even though she can’t reciprocate Touko’s feelings, she’s happy just to have a close friend and confidant who both values her presence and can actually listen to her worries. Meanwhile, Touko is too preoccupied with her infatuation to really engage with Yuu’s needs, or respect her boundaries – an issue further complicated by Yuu’s tendency to blur the lines of whether they’re joking or flirting with each other. Their relationship is a mess, in short, but it’s the kind of mess that emphasizes the relatable flaws and fundamental humanity of its occupants. Right now they are each asking the other for something they can’t really provide, and though they certainly care about each other, that’s not enough to create a real relationship. I’m very excited to see where this flaming car of a romance goes, so let’s get right on with exploring the next episode!